Take Two

I don't know why, but 2 Corinthians 5:17 has really been on my mind recently. I'd hate to be annoyingly redundant, but I have to talk about it again. Maybe this is a selfish post; maybe there is no benefit for anyone reading this, and it only helps me. Regardless, I hope my struggle helps you in some way.

We all go through cycles in our relationship with God. Some months, we'll be on fire--seeking Him with everything we have. Those months are wonderful--you're putting effort in to the relationship and you're able to see the fruit. Bible verses that you read come back to you at the perfect time. Praying comes easily, and it just feels right. Then something happens. Your quiet time/Bible routine gets thrown off and everything changes. You have to remind yourself to pray (when you remember), and reading the Bible is always something that you can do later.

I know this is normal (let me know if it isn't!), but still, every time I fall into this portion of the cycle (a little too often), I feel like the biggest failure. It's a terrible cycle. When I feel like that I just compare myself to my role models and tear myself down.

Sometimes I think that finding God and accepting Jesus will make everything easier. Not in the sense that I won't have any trouble--I know that trouble and hard times are guaranteed down here--but that sinning will be harder to do. Does anyone else think this?

Anyway, if I keep going right now, I'll just begin to ramble. I'll probably continue this tomorrow :)

Prayers and advice are always appreciated!